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Walking for days on end with sores
Words with my friends, we never get bored
Each methodology being accepted and rejected
Looking for a place whose heart I can rest in
Check under that lake where the locusts rattle
The people walk towards them like the stings won’t shadow
Buzz back into town with the latest tattle
The worker bee cut off because the queen wanted to battle
Under the head now lain to rest
A fox has come into the cave to take its breath
Even the locust has a place to lay its head

Walking for days more until the truth is fully read
Days and days where does that promise lie
Started at sea level and now I must go high
Seek the places where the wings are most free
Find in the nest there were some before me
Each mountain climb was another change
The first revealed the enemy
Now revealed the strange
Some who walked alike never saw the mountain
Yet wanted the benefits of a top man
Some who walked never saw the sky champ
The same one who made the fox’s den damp
Yet even as with the fox the feathers lay their rest
Given resources by the champ yet will leave others out to test
Will build their places on the most high hills
Not realizing that the hills just lost their wheels
And when the nest breaks where will they go
Not even thinking of the endless of days who created the bow

The last day that I will sit above the earth
Legs are tired and the nest has its girth
Waiting for a place where I can finally rest
Standing on a tree, with my credentials who would have guessed
Ripped from the pages of the best history
Hewn to four letters is my only eulogy
Soggy dens by the foxes, the birds destroyed the nest
My head now tired but no place to rest
My only hope now is a fading glance from the champ
Purchased for more than my life
My face has now found its place of no strife
A place where I can lie until the trumpet is sounded
My champ will claim by me victorious and rest is no longer bounded
This was the point of the walk all along
The champ had purchased me
But they had to pay for me to go home.

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Silly thought that I had a minute ago was to write something, but I thought that I had no place to write. It seems like I have too many places to write. Emails, text messages, poetry, articles, just stuff all over. It doesnt help any that people on this floor are very loud. I never understood why the help desk makes every call their receive a call to be heard on the speaker phone. Of course, they chat quite loudly regardless of a phone conversation or someone right in front of them. Its silly really. What ever happened to workplace manners?

Well, anyways. I did come here to write something but I think that I forgot what I was going to write about. I am trying to refocus on what I was thinking at that moment and that brush with the loud folks kinda threw me off. I had to resort to putting my headphones in the computer so that concentrated sound could drown out their voices. I usually have music playing, and it is supposed to be white noise, not drown out other folks noise.

Back to life: I am pleased that the Sixers made a trade. Even if Webber is only healthy for 1-2 seasons, we do get well out of this. Of couse, chemistry is always a big thing.

I am working on a website redesign for PalmBible+ (see it here) and thinking about tweaking this site. But I need more space to really do what I want to do. These blog postings are taking up quite a bit of space and I would like to make a better picture gallery (mental note: resample pictures for smaller file size) and finally get the poetry and business sides up. I am just really tired of webbing when I get home. The most I do at home on the web is write/publish articles and grab email. There tends to be a lot of email, so I guess that's why writing can get tiresome. Oh well.

My sweetie and I have takled a few times this week, and I recieved a letter from her. I feel bad that I dont write her more, but like I said, I am tired of writing. Dont get me wrong, I love creating and writing, but I'd rather it would not be a chore. I cant even handwrite more than a few lines before my handwriting gets out of hand. Its weird I am sure, but hopefully this will pass.

Well, that's all for now. I am at work buring company money chilling on the web looking at my 20-some odd websites, designing on three websites and maintaining another. Yea, I most definitley have an issue with keeping up with things around me. Peace and blessings.Read More

Getting into playing a game with my cousin kinda made me late getting here. It is my hope that I can convey my thoughts in such a way that it will not be too rushed though.

One of the thoughts that I had a few days ago was the idea of getting rid of all of the computers that are around me. I am into computers as much as they are into me. God has gifted me here, but I saw the way in which computers will be used to hold down all areas of society except those well endowed with money. I personally dont like the idea of this celiing on every aspect of my life. Being a minority, there is supposed to be a limit to my expectations and performance. Being a man there is supposed to be a strength and tenderness that yields nothing. Being an American I am told to be arrogant and give all that I have to those that "deserve" more. Frankly speaking, I wish that I could change the system of thought.

I look at humanity and the great people that have changed the though of ages. Jesus, Martin Luther, Hitler even. These folks walked with such convicition about what they believed and somehow got others to sit long enough that they could get bit by the bug too. I want that. I am scared of that. If people were to do that and then take my words out of context to hurt others, I would feel the blame for that whether I was living or not. What if someone took my poetry and sold it in an erotic store, rather than placing it into a high school textbook. That would hurt as it is not what I want to happen. I want my words to shape and form. I want to be able to leave my words and actions as a legacy for my children's children.

Had another thought then too: check out this article and then tell me what you think: http://news.com.com/2102-1028_3-5573414.html?tag=st.util.print

As far as I am concerned, I want to be able to eitehr ditch computers, or speak out against the people that are calling for this kind of stuff. People arem't thinking, and wose yet, citizens aren't reading the constitution to know what is and what isn't the rights of the state and federal government.

I don't know. Maybe it just isn't my time on that end. I have been doing well with a few new designs for websites at work. Maybe that will be my means to open the world/country to what it is that we are all getting ourselves into.

I am going to bed now, I pray that if you read this far that you too can have a blessed rest.Read More

I have to say that since I have been on this "I dont want to have a lot of paper around" kick, that it has been refreshing to not have as much junk mail in my mailbox. of course, all of that junk now comes in my email inboxes, so much so that I have addresses dedicated directly to junk mail. It helps, but you cant help but to have some things get through.

One of those things that got thru snail mail to me was this mailing from a company called National Magazine Exchange (NME). I thought that it was somwhat legit since it was one of those mailings that I had never seen before and that they said that money was waiting. But of course, I have to do my homework. So first, I called them on the weekend. When I called, I got the machine, and that was kool, except that the recording never said what the name of the company was. Due to that, I read the really small print on the back of the notice adn found that it wasnt for money at all, but for a conditional winning pending me calling them and agreeing to their terms. Of course, that meant that I had to check these people out.

I went to Google to do a search for national magazine exchange and found some interesting things from the Better Business Bureau about them. Needless to say, they are most probably a scam and not really worth the time. I hope that this finds you well. Make sure that you check your mail, you never know who is looking to hook you on to what. Of course the other part of that is to make sure that you only open mail that you recognize. Moreso with email than with snail mail, you dont want to open yourself to denial of service attacks, viruses, or worse.

Peace and blessings.Read More

Ok, so my laptop is now back working and I am able to get on here and write a bit. Only a little bit though since I need to be in bed since it is after 1am and Monday. Quickie shoutout to Kyera who is in Kenya. Happy Valentine's Day love. I will be dreaming of holding you in my arms once again, but this night even closer.

Many hellos and blessings to Trev Will. I know that you are over there having a good time in the Lord just trying to make it thru your term. I pray many blessings towards you.

Well, for everyone else, thanks for taking the time to check out my incomplete website. Maybe now that things are working, I will be able to get some updates finally done. Peace and blessings to all.Read More

Sorry that I havent been here to update anything, but I have not had much of anything to say. I will get there at some point. But for now, things have been busy enough that I am quite occuiped with life. I shall write when things hit me though. That is a promise.Read More

I dont know how other people deal with feeling a part of a group, but I am one of those people that if I am new to a group, that I would do my best to stay low key. I dont like too much of the spotlight and prefer to support those in the spotlight. I have felt that way here at work in that I mainly do maintenance to the website. It is not the glory job, but it does keep me behind the scenes just enough that the senior members get looked at for good/bad before I do.

Today, I had a presentation of the new website that is in development here. Instead of just doing the regular website, I did it all in Flash, much like my website is. I followed the new website in developement and made some changes here and there. And for the most part, the bosses and co-workers liked it. Of course, they are not able to use it, but there are elements that I have to design by 2pm tomorrow for a presentation meeting that will make it to the website.

That part was great and just made me fell good in them seeing some of what I think that I can bring to the team. But after the meeting I was surprised when my boss Kola, asked me to do something (aka, clean up and make Flashy) the front end graphic on IDI's website (click here to visit site). That completly shocked me seeing that this is the front end of the website to a very well respected company. I know that I can do it. But wow, it kinda blows me away that I have been asked to do something of this scale.

Of course, that leads me into a praise break here at my deak. I just got to give God glory for just all that I wrote about that has happened. It seems that, more than I wanted to open my eyes to see, that God wants to use the gifts that I have not only to be a blessing and provide for needs, but to be a source of light. I can tell you that from the jump, God has gotten the glory from every success that I have had here, and I have praised him thoughout all my failures.

The lady on the bus that I sometimes take here from the train station is also saved and we talked some this morning about how putting ourselves in a position to be a light to people instead of letting our mouths shine.Read More