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Sometimes, when I have places I want to go or decsions that need to be made, I am all for them until right before they have to be made. Then I start thinking, or someone says something, and that faith just goes all out like a balloon that just lost all its air. I know that by faith God is pleased (Hebrews 11:6), and I have to more than anything walk by faith if I want to see what He has for me. But why is it that everytime that I walk by faith, I get the air let out. Is it always a test of my faith? I know that decisions should always be made carefully, considering all variables, but in the end choosing wisely and understanding where that decsion will lead. That's why I do my homework; I study, read reports, create reports, gather little bits of information here and there until I am ready to make a decision. So why is it at that point I have to fight myself. Didn't I convince myself enough with doing all that work and not just jumping out there on faith at first breath?

Lord, I need you to help me walk out on the faith that I asked help on before. I am fighting myself on recieving your blessings and don't know how to respond to myself.Read More

Havne't been here in a while (lol). I have been putting so much energy and time into other projects that I havent taken a lot of time here. I did say that I would have the picture gallery up a few weekends ago, but has passed and will have to wait until my next roll of free time.

In other news, Mobile Ministry Magazine is going well. I have a good model to follow in the Palm Addict (see link below), so I know where this can go.

Just finished the eReader.com version of Every Man's Battle. Whew! I have to tell more folks about that book. It was incredible. Kyera wants to read it so that we are both looking at the same thing, and that's great. Now I really have a reason to push publishers to make electronic books. That's the only way I'll read them :). I will be looking for another book in the next few days. Keep tuned to here and Mobile Ministry Magazine as I will share my thoughts on it from both sites.

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Mobile Ministry Magazine has gone web. Click the link at the bottom right of the screen to visit the new Blog-styled website for Mobile Ministry Magazine. The look may change some as I look to make sure that it works well on mobile devices as well as look good enuogh for dekstop use. Also the Sping edition of MMM is right around the corner. I finsihed with the content yesterday, so all that's next is to arrange it and create the graphics. Stay tuned, it is a good time to be set apart and esteemed by Dad.Read More

I tell you, today has been one of those days and it is no where near being over. I wrote a really open letter to Kyera this weekend and feared the worst. When I read her reply on my way into work, I almost cried. GOd truely has a beautiful and loving woman in my corner. I thanked God for her and went on with my day.

As I read that email, I began to reflect on a book that I started reading today called Every Man's Battle (see eReader.com if you have a handheld computer; Amazon.com if you want the paper version). I tell you the truth there too, I've been totally afronted. For so long I had neglected growth in God because I had not dealt with the sin of sexual impurity. I know that I have a ways to go, but it is so good to finally be honest with myself and begin to walk back to the presence of God for some much needed fixing.

Then I got to work and fixed my mind on a project that I left alone for the weekend. I finished my report but my team lead had a different opinion as to how I should have written the report. He was right in saying that I should have been online with the other senior members of the team concerning the recommendations in the report. I heard him yet felt my intrgrity was being challenged. It's hard to write an unbiased report when you are biased. I guess that is one thing that I learned from my writing at BargainPDA. Even if you dont like something, you have no right to press your opinion on others, only to present the truth and allow them to make the decsions for themselves. I felt that I did that, but my writing was not agreed with. My team lead and I chatted and went to lunch. It was a ideological difference, not a personal one. I understand, and my writing will further be honed in making sure that I consider all sides of an equasion (at least writing reports, this site stays quite me-minded).

So now I am listening to three worship songs by Cross Movement: We Worship, Lord You Are, and Closer to You. I feel today that I am a bit closer to the Lord than I was yesterday. And although I have a ways to go before being in His face. I will get there.Read More

One of the things that I do not do very often on this site is talk about my love of Palm handhelds. I dont even know if I can call it so much a love of them, as much as it is a love of how much they have empowered me to reach for the stars and be organized while doing it. I think about why I got a PDA in AUgust of 2000: part of that was me telling my aunt that if she got me a PDA that I would never again lose her number. The other reason was that I needed to get my GPA up as I was on my last strings of being at school. So, I took a two week period and went completly paperless and started using a PDA. It was fun not having paper around. I did print my notes quite often into a binder. My GPA went up and I became more proficient in organizational skills. I was even able to teach others about PDAs and how to take a vision and run with it.

Well, that worked while I was in school but after I left I wondered how PDAs would be still a part of my life. There was no longer the school application and I wanted to see what else could be done with the tecnology. I started teaching a class and then realized that being organized was more that just a school thing, it was a life thing. I became quite enamored with walking with a vision and using the PDA as the tool to manage all the pieces of my life that attached to that vision. Even to the point of writing in my schedule when I was to see my ladi and have morning devotions, for me the PDA was not just a digital assistant, but a life assistant.

And so where does that leave me now. My PDA can do just about everything that my desktop can do, save for editing my website because its in Flash. But I can bank, and email, I can write documents, and scheudle meetings. Its really quite kool the many applications that can be had with a PDA. Not to mention that there are other people around me that have seen my differnt uses and have gotten a PDA to do the same thing. I guess that in that way I am a bit of a pioneer. Kinda kool when I think about it that way.

I still wonder what's next. Where are PDAs going to go in the future, and will I need to follow. At this point my T5 is more than enough for what I need a PDA for, I cannot see me looking towards getting another one unless there was some new battery or screen technology to check out, and even then it would have to be a need to move rather than a want. I wonder if my kids will be tech junkies like I am. I know Kyera isnt, though I have convinced her to get a PDA. PDAs and I are just beginning to have fun I guess. And if Bible+ is any indication, then God has even more in mind for me with PDAs than I can dream.Read More

Grace and peace to those who visit my site on a semi-regular basis.
Andrew, Steve, Gail, Mary, Sammy, and everyone else. Thanks for visiting and many blessings to you.

To Kyera and Emilie;
Peace and blessings to you two as you are finishing up your time in Africa.

To Kyera;
God bless you my wife-to-be. I await your return.Read More

Oh where,
Oh where is my love?
Hark...
A song the birds since is heard yet I see none;
A melody passes by my ears
Yet its harp I do not see.
Where could thou be?
Oh where,
Oh where is my love to be.

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I sometimes think that I am not doing a good job at work. I am having trouble juggling the different projects and trying to stay a step ahead of myself so that things get done. And so, I have had this mentality that I want to do my best so that I can do everything that I can not to lose this position. If that means doing a report on products I never used, or asking to go to workshops, I'll do it. I really feel that God has lbessed me a great deal with this job and I would be wise to do well in it while I am here.

That really wasn't my motivation for writing though. A few minutes ago my boss called me to just say that I am doing a great job and that he appreciates the work that I am doing. Granted, its not the prayer for a raise that I was asking for, but apparently I am doing well in representing my Father. My hope everyday in that 2 hour trek to work is that I would do no worse than the day before. To that end, I try to keep my conversation holy and my actions Christ-like. I do hope that this leads to bigger and better, though I admit that the idea of more responsiblity does kinda scare me (as does car and homeownership, and especially marriage).

Lord willing; I can continue to do well here. And not just my boss is giving me commendations, but my Father is as well.Read More

Just made a small update. As you can tell, the splash for my birthday is no longer coming up when you visit. I have made that availiable via a button; after the view it automatically comes back to the front page. Ads now scroll and have a better popup feature. There is also some sound feedback. Will get to the pics when I get time. Idea is in head, just not done. Peace and blessings until then.Read More

That day was like nothing ever felt before
I woke up as normal
Traffic stopped long enough to sore
Busses ran loudly and crowded
Patience was improvised more and more
And then there was a note
In my heart's pocket I received it
The paper wrinkled and familiar
I proceeded though knowing to read bits
Put a taste away when the trains stopped again
Looked at the paper again with my digits
Walked into work with food in hand
Life now calmed ready to set the pace
And lo I was touched with mail
And pages more that rendered upon the day a different face
Linked to one page of appearance familiar
My digits looking to solve the familiar case
My ears
Oh my ears were now burning
Looking to hear something new yet old
Now with my digits flowing and my mind churning
I find a release in a song anew
A song that speaks peace to my innermost yearnings

That's all I can remember before embarking on this place
Lunch colder than the day
Eyes hidden from Spring's face
Heart needed just some time to reconnect
And when the song commences again I remember
Make sure to mark this day a self check
This was the day worship took me away
The day the pen told no lie but only truth
The day I remembered my past
But God is above all that I flung on the roof
This Great King made peace with me for this day
And left me
And brought me
And holds me
Because He
Is thee reasons why I live and breathe this season
He is
And this is
The day I stopped my work to worship.

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I've had a few thoughts throughout the day but this one is getting me to the pad for writing. I have taken some time to think about the people in my life today and whether some should stay in my life, and what is the purpose for some of those people. For example, I know a ton of pastors. And in every case, each of them have been in my life for some season in my life. Some have come in and I dont even know what happened while they were here, but they were. They come and go. I wonder now about if whether I am being bolstered by these people for something bigger. I heard another say to me this week that I would be capable of big things. I guess then it is good to have so many people in my life now to keep me grounded.

At the same time I think of those who are in my life whom probably shouldnt be there. Should changes in my life mean that some friends no longer have the same place. I know for a fact that being with Kyera has changed completly the way I handle myself around women. Even though she is out of the country till May, I still make sure that she remains the front of all my dealings with females. I would rather not have any relationships that would plant seeds that would make her question my heart for her.

So that was today. I know, I am thinking too deep. But I needed to think it. And I needed to come to some conclusions on this matter. I can only hope that I make wise decisions, for I know that some of them will not be well received.Read More

Hello again all;

I spent some time at the website www.holycultureradio.com and was very blessed by what I found in their forums in terms of discussion topics and the like. FYI: Holy Culture Radio is an internet radio station that play Holy Hip Hop and yearns to educated the believer as well as empower them to go out and teach the nations the gospel. I was/am involved with the "culture" of Holy Hip Hop when I was in college as I sang for the school gospel choir, rapped, did psalms and poetry at cafes, and worked with youths in the nearby city at their teen center.

One of the most talked about issues pertained to that of being distinct. Yes, at its base, some holy hip hop sounds just like secular music. But there is a distinct sound from many artists which I can only say its the spirit of God. As I read thru the threads, I began to feel challenged within myself as to whether I am being distinct in my palm usage and how I speak and am representing Christ in this arena. I dont want to be a bible basher and turn off more than I attract to the love of God, but I do want there to be a distinct line between where I come from when I speak and act with my PDA rather than one who isnt a believer.

What do all of yu feel towards that subject? I know we have here a lot more world perspectives and world travelers than in the holy hip hop forum. I was wondering how do you make that distinction with your technology. Or, is it even important enuogh to make a distniction? Just something to chew on I guess.Read More

I have to write about this. I am currently at work listening to Holy Culture Radio (click here and have to say that these brothers and siters minstering thru this website have made an EXCELLENT website for those who want edification via Holy Hip Hop. And even if you never listened to holy hip hop, take a listen to the Lyrical Theology show, it will change your minds and heart towards what music really can do for the soul. I just had to post this here. Ima find a way to download their progams so that I can listen to them on my palm; but even not doing that, you can fill your minds and hearts with some pure music at HolyCultureRadio.com. Go visit and get edified.Read More

The last few posts were done with this kool software called Mo:Blog on my palm. I have to play with it some more to make sure that it keeps my template, and therefore lets a person see more than one post on the page. But other than that, I am happy that it works. Now I can become a blogging fool...or blog-ool (LOL). Peace.Read More

Koolbeans
It works! I am happy and can go to bed now. Peace & blessings.
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his is just a test from my palm. If it works then Kyera can read that I love her :-)
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One has to like the web. I did a search on my name some months ago and didnt even make it on the front page. So when i redid my website last year, I made sure to do some tweaks to make sure that I came up first (or close to it) when a search came up. Doing a search today showed me at #2 on Yahoo so I made a few changes there and hopefully I can now be easier to find. Who knows, maybe I'll become famous enough that people will use a search engine to hunt me down.Read More

Hopefully you enjoyed that bit of a splash screen. There is some sound wiht it but I had to resort to a non-miked way of getting the sound on there. If I can manage to rerecord it before the day is over, I will keep the plash up longer.

And if you didnt get the message...
Today April 12th is my birthday.Read More

Besides my allergies and missing my lady, it has just been one of those days. I have been driving all weekend, having a rental so that I could go to PA and handle some business with friends and family. But I feel that it is not right for me to be back to walking and busing it. I want to have that option of whether to take the bus or drive. And so I need a car. But the thing there is that I know that I dont want a used car. I have wanted a new car because of wanting to get the full value out of it. Also, I rather not do what I did when I first bought a computer and get a used one that was trumped the next week by a new one that was cheaper than the used one. I know that can happen very easily. So, I do my homework. I know my needs. And I want to be able to get a new car.

My faith had been questioned this weekend. Could I really fully rely on the Lord to be my portion. To be all that I need. I have had trouble answering it because I want to say yes, but I have acted more towards no. Dad really can do anything. I just dont know how to believe him for sommething that is so far from my abilities like getting a new car. I wish that this were easier. Maybe it would be if I werent so insistent on getting what I know what works. I prayed for a computer, did the homework, and now am blessed. Same with my phone and my PDA. Why am I having so much trouble for a car then. God can do it. I know He can. I just dont know how to put my faith out there.

Well, thats enough for my ranting for the day. You know its a weird day when I have to write three times in one day. Peace and blessings.Read More

Ok, next time allergy season rolls around, I will be sure to read the box. I picked up some allergy medicine and it has knocked me out. That, and work is such that the nice weather is playing games with me. If I were any bolder, I'd leave work so that I could just rest. I dont think I will take this but once more today, but I know I will sleep well.Read More

Just got word today that Yih-Chun, the maker of Bible+ for the PalmOS is not dying. Apparently, the website was hijacked and that message was put there. Very not kool. I am actually quite angry that my heart strings were pulled like that. I am glad though to see all of those who poured out support towards Yih-Chun. Its great when the Internet is able to bring so many people together.Read More

Ok, so I should be sleeping right now but I wanted to do this before the weekend was over.

Had a good time in PA this weekend. Went to Ville for a fund rasing banquet, ran into some old choir folks (you go Cimba :) ) and then went to chuch in Philly on Sunday. Things were well and it felt great to just visit folks on a nmice weekend.

My birghday is in a few days. I only want one thing, and that I cannot have. I need a day with my lady and then I can get back to life. I can get back to doing web and writing reviews. I can get back to singing to myself and reading scriptures. But really, I just need to hold my lady. I miss Kyera a great deal and for the past few weeks thats all that people around me have been talking about. I cannott blame them, she has been gone a good while. But more than probably anyone, I miss my best friend and know that I need a day with her before i feel like my year is done.

Many blessings to YiChun. If it is God's will for you to get better, then do. If not, then may your rest with Him be as much of a blessing to you has you have been to eveyrone who wants to read a bible on their palm.

To Nika Wade, thanks. My brother in Chirst really liked his gift given today. I thank you for being availiable and being a blessing. I dont look at it as I bought it from you, only that I was the middle man in a means for you to bless someone else.

If I dont go to bed, I will die in the middle of the day, so this is it for now. Many blessings to all.Read More

All I want for my day
The time that I spend with her
The moment to last a bit longer
Daylight to save a moment more

All I want for that day
That time when she does and I do
Our toes to be warmed in sands
The sunset in front of us to share our joy

All I want for my day
That time when she returns from afar
She can rest her tired limbs on me
And I will pray with her blessings more

All I want for that day
When I celebrate another year walking talking
Is for the world to know I am refreshed
And have returned to a heart closer than before

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I just wanted to write my small piece. Pope John Paul II lived an honorable life, and receives that honor from many in death. That is an ideal way to leave a legacy. And for some reason, I dont think that the story of his life is quite over yet. Weird aint it? I dunno, things are changing and though I sometimes think that I am ready, I dont know what I am ready for. All I do at this point is live honorably and that too is what I would leave. A nice model for living in modern times.Read More