AntoineRJWright.com: 09/01/2005

Out of the Office
lord, I have to admit that it is good not to be in the office right now. not because of the job, but I needed a break from the environment. the backbiting and chat has been increasing and I don't really want to be in it.

motivated and chill at the same.
--- written on a Treo

Just a Metered Look

Been looking at getting the new Treo smartphone. Its not out yet, its not even announced as coming. I am just "in the know." And so when I got my current Treo (a 2+ year old model), I got it with the mindset that I would be upgrading to the next one. Well, the next one is coming, but I dont want it. Only because its not the next one I was looking for. So for now, my look at the Treo has taken on a bit longer of a look. A metered look if you will. Just long enough to measure my interest and the abilities of it.

Now, I am thinking of selling my current palm so that I can get the Treo 650 (came out last year) and then have Bluetooth and the higher resolution (and slightly better battery life, though I am by no means complaining now). Oh the decisions of a gadget guy :)

Essentials of Humility
Sometimes, I know that humbleness is easier said than done. I just wish that it didn't always come at the expense of time. I sometimes just want to be right, but know that its better to first be loving before establishing one is right.

And so that is where I sit today. I am a elbow ligament, and know that things happening with knee ligaments shouldn't bother me. They do because we are a part of the same body. But its my part to remain in the arm and not worry about supporting the wight of the body.
--- written on a Treo

Busy With Webbing

I tell you. I have been quite busy with the web this week. From MMM getting back live to getting some reviews ready for BargainPDA; things are really picking up. The worst part of it all is that I have an even bigger project with work going on that will probably sap the new creative juice that I have been having this week. I am working on an interactive Flash tutorial for the site that I am working on. It will take the whole of next week to do it, but I think it will be really good (and tiring when its done).

Then add to that the fact that moderating at HolyCultureRadio has picked up. I have also joined the message board at a similar site, Correct Dialect (www.correctdialect.com) and have been posting some there.

PalmBible+ is getting close to releasing version 3.2. And so I have some major updates for that site as well, that basically plan to keep me busy as well. There is also some software I am testing for PocketCraft (www.pocketcraft.com) that keeps me going too.

Sad part is that I like this stuff. I think that being involved in all of these areas of mobile tech is allowing me to learn different parts of what makes people (and especially myself) tick. And with this week's focus being "worship regardless of anger," I can really see God taking what would have been anger energy, and using it to create something great.

Ah to be busy...aint it fun :) LOL

Weird Postings

I've been doing some posting via my Treo Palm phone and so pardon if the last two posts look a bit off. I've wanted to post more, and having teh Treo allows that. Weird thing is that because I didnt publish right after I wrote them, they have today's date, instead of the days I created them. Oh well. Weird postings is me.

Also, thanks to all who've commented. I appreciate the encouragement and prayers. THings are getting easier as the Lord has been directing me to worship more, and that has left less room to complain, and figure out the problems. Now I have time to meditate on the solution, and life isnt as weird and full.

Encouragement of the Day
1 Peter 1:1-6 especially this part:
(1:3) Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who according to His abundant mercy has begotten us again to a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, (1:4) to an inheritance incorruptible and undefiled and that does not fade away, reserved in heaven for you, (1:5) who are kept by the power of God through faith for salvation ready to be revealed in the last time. (1:6) In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while, if need be, you have been grieved by various trials,
--- written on a Treo

Piece
should each moment sum into another grater one.
or each pie be better enjoyed whole.
or is each moment of life just in lieu of the peace of eternity we are to receive.
no .
matter the answer it is a piece of something larger.
--- written on a Treo

City of Refuge
As I sit here in my car at a church that calls itself a city of refuge. I wonder some about how all I need at thid moment is refuge. According to the Wird this is a place for those who were accused of murder before they went to trial. I didn't do a murder, but I am guilty of taking on too much all over the place. In a sense, killing myself keeping others happy. Now, I know that I cannot just throw things off completly. But I do need to find a wy to let things go without killing them.

I can imagine Kyera reading this and thinking again that I am buckling under the pressures of work, rest, and relationship. Others might just say a bro is tired. I am. and before I don't like my reflection (prv. 27:19), I need to find more refuge than a closed baskerball court.

Other Thoughts...

Mobileministrymagazine.com is up. Even though content is a bit old due to some hosting issues, its up for viewing. Most of the content should show up there.

I am looking at the T5 and Treo 600 that I have am wondering if there should be something better. I mean, I am looking at probably the best in computing right now, at least in terms of the abilities and design, in the Treo 600. And then there is the T5, a long standing model of what PDAs should be. I have had the 600 for nearly a week, and have basically allowed it to be my only device. It has excelled in most accounts. But then it isnt great. I'd like to be using a bluetooth headset with it, and its still a bit cumbersome when it comes to taking notes while in a meeting at work. But as a device that keeps me connected, its about as good as one can get (that is if I didnt count the 650, which tempers some of the shortcomings of the 600 that I have). Its a thought, but maybe I can go back to the T5 and my phone seperate and be happy. I dont know. I like having a lighter pocket. But dont like missing my apps, BT, memory, or the larger screen.

Sitting in the house, drinking silence, thinking bout work tomorrow; laid back, with no money in my pocket but it all in my mind :) [props to whomever can figure that one out]

Thats about all for now. I need to see about some other issues that I am attending to. Hopefullly, things on other websites and with this silent run wont be as bad as smelly socks.

Questioning My...

This is probably one of those that should be placed in the "he shouldnt be so open online section." But I dont care. I need to write.

I was sitting here working and webbing came to thinking that I might be in the wrong place. Not because I dont think that I can do this job or succeed where I am. But because there is so much that I came into having to learn and be more honed in. Being self taught in a lot of things has its advantages, but there are some things that I just miss because of no formal web teaching. Right now, I question my abilities, even though honing them has been extended to me.

I have [for the most part of my net life] looked at the net as a place where people should be able to express and find information easier than they would in a more live but more distant format. Better than a book because you can search word for word, yet at the same time it will be descriptive and engage you as much, if not more than, a book can. My job has been trying in that format. I have thoughts, but they are not received. My best seems to be bad cut and paste jobs compared to the styles of others. Part of that is experience and skill. But I see an underling issue here. That I think differently.

Its not just on the net; but every where. I seem to have a different thought that the norm. Different than the conception. I think ahead, and at the same time abstractly. This leads me to question my abilities and my funcationality in this and other settings. And whether I really am being prepared for something bigger, or ran into a detour and am finding my way back to the main road. Tis a bit more than I even bargained for thinking like this I guess. But its a hump day thought that I now consider.