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I replied to this at the HolyCulture Radio Forums today with this:

Only because a bro is reeling from a convo with his ladi last night where he said he doesnt know why this has unfolded the way it has...i have no clue as to how his plans are beign pulled off, but they are. How he pulls people together who are so different and so stubborn, but he does. If we had our way, things would be smoothly wrong, but he has another thought in mind.

That is where I stand. I said many wrong things, and have done many more wrong. But I don't know His plans any more than I know the air in my nose. To that end I only smell that much and the rest is His-seen (not unseen).Read More

Each note played has its own tone and emotion
Each light its own flame and taste
My words resemble the notes and flame
Should each be taken as the whole
Or each letter and line by its own sight
If I were a translator
Finding these buried in the mist of a once great place
I'd take each as a part
Then hope to understand the whole
However I realize this cannot be done
And the whole is taken at a time
Each line being blurred until the music is inflamed.

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No reason to really sit upon this much longer
I have to discern nothing more than my heart's words
Now memories left taken or thrown
It's on point now that I stand clear
I have stated my case
I have made my unctions clear
Maybe too much so
Maybe too much detail is too much to bear
And yet tis the lines drawn of my heart
So for joy
For fear
For anger strawed deep
For happiness strawed shallow
I speak on this no more
Leaving at the door that which I said
Admiting that my words expressed me only
Admiting my anger at a God near yet far
Nothing more said to me upon my night thoughts
And taken lightly no more
This rock now smoother than before
Waiting to be skipped across the sea once again
Not purposed to sit on another's shoreline
But thrown into a deep to be a part of a larger floor

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A few things happened to me this weekend that made me think a bit that I am sometimes too far removed from my past. The first being that I was able to see my cousin Alvin and his wife Angela, and child Jennifer. It has been many years since seeing them, and I wouldn't have known that they lived so close lest cousin Alvin ran into me on Christmas Eve at the Weis down the street. I have to say that it was a plesant surprise as he was very good to me on the day of my father's funeral and I most appreicate him for that.

Then also I watched tonite Aladdin. I havent seen that move in a very long time. There are a lot of memories and dreams that I have associated with that movie, and especially the song "A Whole New World." I can remember, when I was in 8th grade and hearing this song about how much I thought about it as the perfect wedding song. Shoot, in some ways (probably many ways), I thought of myself as an Aladdin-type. A person not really doing too much but underneath it all was a diamond just waiting to be uncovered. If that is the case, I am still in that uncovering process though. I don't know that my character now is one that the whole world would love to see a lot of.

There was also the conversation at my cousin Alvin's place about my lack of hair. When he last saw me I had a mini-fro. I havent had that much hair in a long time, and I can remember when it was a good look for me. Unfortunately, getting twisties really messed that up and since then my hair has never really grown the same. I sometimes think of what things would be like trying to take care of that much hair again, but the Lord is always reminding me of how much pride and my hair have been common items in my life. I guess, that is just one part that would have to remain a memory for a while longer.

That was one great song:
A whole new world, a shining place I never knew, but now from way up here, its crysal clear, that now I'm in, a whole new world, with you.
(I wonder if Shanneka remembers singing that at graduation. Tis was a fun time, though as a class we sounded like hot trash).Read More

Look down, see the new featured link and then click for the rest of my favorite links. Thats all for now.Read More

Would you dare to run a naked verse
Spend a few lines of prose immersed
Give a second to a heart's bruised purse
Count it lottery driven
This lot was your's but you've given it up
I find that even while this verse has run deep
My hands cannot keep up
They refuse to compete
My heart is heavy from night's talk and speak
I wish that for a change that I would meet
But the truth is told in fear and love
Why would thou be merry
When thy heart's a glove
They spirit incensed at the night's declaration
And yet the last few night's a different dedication
I wish that I may
I wish that I might
Yet in this life wishes only pass as prayers deep into the night
For this night I pray no decision be made
Let my heart prove my faith
Let not the words be dismayed
But I cannot say the scenes my heart would play
Even before written verse it played out this way
My hearts and diamonds were clubbed to pieces
A joker stole a spade and draped my hands in feces
I then awoke to a dream stranger than the life left
Three by one and yet identity was by theft
No where in that story have you played a major part
Except the antagonist prodding deeper and deeper into the shallow part
Henceforth this night I am left to question this life away
Should I run more towards this naked verse
Or by faith should I stay?

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I have to admit something out loud. I miss my cat. He was the most easy to take care of pet. PLus, he was kinda self serving in that if we wanted food he tapped you, if he wanted to go out, would meow (sounded like "ooowoot"); the dude was koolbeans. Even tried to claim squatting rights on my bed every nite. Very kool cat Domino was.

And so today, talking at work about Japan and robots kinda made me think that I could get an AIBO (offical site). For those that don't know. Sony made a really advanced robat dog called an AIBO and it has basically gotten very much of a cult following. The best part about the non-living pet, is that the AIBO would "learn" from its environment and how you treat it and act accordingly. It was realyl kool.

A report came out earlier in the month that Sony will be ceasing to produce these, so I am sure that the price will go up (even higher). But for this guy who is thinking again that a pet would be kool (despite that no pets thingy in my apt complex), I would be able to vibe with one of those. Clean, and only requiring attention and electricty. Shoot, I'd have someone to drive with me when Kyera isn't in the car. That too would be decent.

Of course, if I didnt' get an AIBO, I'd go for a Furby and enact silly words on all kinds of folks :-)Read More

Today, for the first time in many months, I have considered redesigning my website. Not that I dont like what I have here, I am jsut ready for something new and different. Seeing the Porsche 997 (911 Turbo) website made me think that there is a further line with my website to be reached.

MMM has got me thinking. Here, there are people who have been in ministry in various types for a good long time in many cases, and they want to work with MMM (something that God had given me). I am by no means a vetran in ministry. Heck, there is no formal title that I hold with any chruch as I am just finding a new one as of a few weeks ago. I just find it amazing that MMM is allowing for so many people of differnt places of ministry within the Body to come together for another cause that meets the same goal of reaching people to share the heart Dad has for them. Wow! Its amazing, and I am plum in the middle it seems too.

Valentine's day was a nice break for me. Got to surprise my ladi with jelly beans and chocolate as she was getting ready to leave work. I am glad that she had a reason to smile today. Sometimes I know life gets to her, and to give her the surprise smile because its a day to celebrate the love Dad has blessed us to share is kinda neat. Even better was the nap that we had afterwards. We be some tired folks at the end of the day.

Well, its too late to stay up and so Ima get to bed. Aint like I dont have work and need to be alert for something else right...gotta love this season I tell ya.Read More

And the Snow Has Fallen
Here goes a Sunday that is a snow day. Woulda been nice to make it one of them days during the week though. that woulda been much nicer to sleep in towards. oh well, had it been tomorrow I'd probably still be the on call person.

Chech out the pictures button for some shots of the snow day from my place. While I am not there now, those were still some cold pics.

And to think, mom went on a plane to Texas. Nice memory to have right?
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Well, now that vacation time is over, I can resume being the adult that tries to be all up in this world and not of it. It was realyl a good time at the wedding and then with Kyera, and then more with new friends from Bay Area Commnuity Chruch. Its been a good thing that I can go to a church and not feel that I have to giev something, and not feel that I have to recieve something either. Tis just free to know that.

In other nice news from the weekend, there are a ton of pics from the wedding and rehersal dinner (here). Feel free to tell me how good or bad my Treo does under pressure :-).

Well, thats all for now. Back to work I go...arrrgh.Read More

Its only a few hours before Jay's wedding and things are moving along quite well on our end. Its not like I havent done this part before, but I guess that it always different every time. Jay and Dayna have been together nearly 8 years, and now its the big day for them. I am very happybeans about that.

Calie the cat was in here a while ago. She made herself at home on my leg for a good while befre I got ready. I am a bit early in getting ready, but at least that keeps one of the party up and ready just in case.

I figure that I may not be able to get many more pics with my Palm until the wedding is near over (or at least once we get to the church. So if you take note, there will be a ncie sized gap in pics. Maybe I will be able to sneak a good one in there ;)

Well, off to get married...soon enough. For now it's Jay and Dayna's time and only a few hours till their union is official to the world :DRead More

I try hard not to forget about you
Life says that I can't
Its really hard to measure these changes
And not hear your voice near me
Guiding
Chiding
Helping
Could you for just a moment more
I do remember some
But the important I don't really recall
Moments here and there
Thoughts when I am silent a bit
Still
Not waiting for the next move
This note is another reminder
That I say it's not hard to forget you
Yet now I want to hear your voice once more.

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This has been one of them days where I havent been heard. I cannot explain it any other way. How else can one have a day where everytime you are asked something, its shot back at you in the "ok so what did you do" mode. I did this, this, and this, the end. "So what did you do?" That has happened quite often today, and many times in the past.

Maybe its something that I am not listening to. Am I just not saying plain and simple language? I updated this page, I wrote this document, I said this. Apparently simple sentence structure isnt working and I have to resort to something else. Otherwise these questions will continue, and I have about had it with them being asked.Read More

Sorry, the previous posts have returned, but the ability to comment on posts had to go in order for that to happen, if I get the time, I will investigate further. For now, just email me if you catch something you want to speak to me personally.Read More

Ok, so its been a while since I sat here and had a public private thought. Its ok, I still dont know why my blog page has been broken. That gets at me a taste. I think it has to do with the flash container though.

We have just been going thru something serious here at work, and its kinda weird how I was asked to do some things. Not that I mind, its just that I like to stay in my lane and let those with those responsiblity take care of those issues. It not like one issue is a reason to think, but many times, I am asked to write up something or do something that someone else might have the better qualifications or duty to do. Its almost like I have responsiblity just given to me, but I really dont want other folks stuff. I handle what I am given, and thats usually enough for me, other folks stuff is a bad barrel to stand on ya know.

Loving my new Treo 650 (got that in December before Christmas. Yesterday was using it in a bible study at UMD and got teh normal "what is he doing" looks. Its kinda kool to get those reactions. And then when folks see what a device can do, it opens the door to say where my heart is with the purpose of mobile technology (aka Mobile Ministry Magazine's focus). Kinda kool if you ask me. Though I imagine here in the US that a ton of folks get offended when seeing the Treo too, it is a phone a PDA, adn many folks just think that kinda tech is too high brow.

Ever read the bible and wonder why and what was going on. Get a commentary, better yet a Moody's Manners and Customs. It will bring some clarity to you reading the Word in its correct context, so that you can better apply it today - ok that was a mini-plug, but a good one.

Finally, congrats to Jay and Dayna. Their wedding is happening this Sat. Pics will hopefully be able to be taken and put on the pics page. Stay tuned. Peace.Read More