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Posting Anew, or Posting to Bed
Getting ready to go to bed and I am trying out a beta version fo the sotware that I use to post to my blogs. It is kinda neat because I can download previous posts (up to 10) and then be able to read and reply to them. Kinda fits as a self check feature.

Right now on the Treo at Kyeras place. As I was typing this she was on a computer using the AOL browseer to iew the site and saw it all jacked up. I don't really like that that browser does that, but there is nothing that I can do about it. Sometimes clean coding is just ignoted.. Oh well.

The cats here have been emotional all night. I guess that it is something in their food or the air. They are silly. But they wanted some attention too, so I can understand that.

Off to bed soon. Gotta gett rest afterr all that driving. Hopefully something restful can happen tonite. It won't be a long day, but I will need every morment of rerst that I can get.
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<b>Reclaimed Peace, Joy....</b>
Just got off the phone with my bro Jason from da Ville and his joy tonite really sparked me into being able to just see that Dad's heart for me right now is to mature in him. This is some good stuff to meditate on. Glad that Dad pulled this one off. I can rest in peaceful sleep tonite now.
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Sometimes I go to MMM in the middle of the day and wish that it were my job. By no means would it be the easiest one, but the one that keeps this mind of mine humming along, with deadlines and things always looming. I admit that I do not always know what to do, but I do find some peace in just going to MMM and seeing things unfold.

As I sit here at work at the end of a really hard day, where I came out worse than how I started, I wonder all the more about the uncomfortability and whether it is just because I am who I am (overlly passionate and detail oriented), or if it really is a spiritual warefare and I am engaging in the type of development to my life and character that can only come from here. Things are most definitely worse than when I was at Arbor Place. There I was underpaid, underworked, and over stressed by the director. At this job now I am...

I am coming to grips with the fact that life gets harder every year and not easier. But man, this grips thing really has a hold of me and I want so much for God to speak something of a whoosh thru my life and everywhere I go so that it would at least be somewhat more bearable. Somewhat...Read More

<b>The Other Side of Life</b>
Here I am home now, a bit early becuase I had a car appt today. And the pressure of the mounting bills and other responsilities are gettting to me. I had to give my bro Trev a call because I am really feeling it and many times he had asked me for prayer when he was at a breaking point.

The weird part is that I am streetched, but in my heart I know God will take care of things. I don't know how. And I am scared to be wrong here. But I do know it in my heart. Miy mind and the mounting bills though get at me. And somehow, people have called decisions that I have made wise.

I guess to me that is why I can title thiis post, the other side of life. Because to me it is. While there is that side wherre I am happy that I am learning new things, excited at the growth that Kyera and I have been having, and other things. There is that other side that just says that everything is all going wrong and I am scared, intimated, something....because I don't have control of any of it.

Sometimes I wish that life could be solved as quickly as lottery winnings. That its not a gamble or anything in that respect, but that one thing comes and makes living a lot easier. I do understand that for me this is my time to grow in those foundational things, but that doesn't make it any harder to deal with. I am learning yes, but on this side of life, its a lesson that takes a lot more understanding and humility from me.
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<b>Kinda Just Sittin</b>
I am here again at the Treo to write some. This time moreso because I do not have much that I can do right now. In some respects I am tired, and need to be bored enough to rest, but I also cannot do much. While sufing the web on a Treo has its place, it can get old really quick. And I do have a magazine that I am making via HTML for MMM that I am working on, but I'd like a bit more screen so that I can do some bulk editing. There is somewhat of a hindrance to this style of computing, even though it keeps me quite productive. I do not know if I would be as productive if things were still the same, or if I would just be weary in that there is much work to be done. I really have enough work to do and so having this moment isn't a bad thing. Just one where I am sittin.

I am going to Philly tomorrow to fix mom's network. It is also Grandma Mary's b-day tomorrow and if I get things done quick, I can run over and see her. I have not been to Philly in a while, and I think that it will be good to get up there and away from this area for a little bit.

Gotta get ready to get outa here. In this mist of typing this got a phone call and will be meeting Ms. Gentile Beauty tonite. That will be hopefully ending my nite on a good note. I am quite tired now and having a few moments with my ladi is always a good way to end one's nite. Until the next blog....cya.
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Well, if you are visiting then you can tell that there is a new website now up. Everything is contained on one page, leaving me room to do a few things behind the scenes. It took me a while, but I got this working. Trust me when I say that there will be some neat things coming down the pipe for this site, Ima like em, and so will you.Read More

<b>Preparing for A Change</b>
When I got home today, I wanted to come here and just rant a bit. I don't want to do that so much now, but I have all of a sudden in the last minute or so figured out that I am preparing for a major change in my life. I am either going to be cut down or pulled up to somewhere I never thought that I would be. And for that end, I won't rant.

I met the mercy of God today when a call after 6pm to work had a person say that they found my wallet. The weird part is that I never knew that my wallet was missing, and it was found over a mile from where I lost it. Needless to say, I was hurt, but relieved. Mercy. I wanted to yell, but all I could do was cry.

I had hoped to release my new website front end today. That did not happen as when I went to do so, I noticed that a couple things were just totally wrong. So in coming home to take my mind off of me, I worked on the page via my work's tabletPC. I figured out the issues and made a few more enchancements that I will appreciate down the line. Its a small change to me, but then again, I really have changed the way I am doing websites, so it has again matured with me. The only thing is that I did say I would be hands off as best I could, and I haven't. Hopefully, Gail won't kill me for that one as she will be seeing something slightly different than what I asked her to look at. I hope also that with the new design that I can bring back the comments, as that is something that I miss about my blog section.

Well, that is all for now. I am going to rest some. Allergies are still here but today has not been too bad. I have been ok. But even then, I know that allergies mean that there is a change coming in the air and in me. Another year, but this year a bit better in dealing with those. Most def change in the air.
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<b>Holding on to....Allergies?</b>
Here I am at home doing some blogging and emailing after I have taken a nap and while I have a great deal to be sasd about (finances), I can say that I have much to be thankful for. My ladi stood thru my headache and attitude in order to bless me today with an excellent conversation, and for that I am thankful. I also ate on some leftovers that she had made and my stomach finds itself nice and full.

I had intended to upload the new version of the front page for this site, but did not get to it as I was busy most of the day. Maybe I will get a chance to do so tomorrow. Who knows really? There are a slew of changes going on and the workload stays large, so to that I just have to put my head down, pray and keep going.

I am considering where to go to seminary again. Now that I am settled in a church, I am looking at where I can go get honed in those things that will best benefit Dad's kingdom for the rest of my life. To be honest, I know its a pastorial role, I just don't know what kind. There are so many things to put my hands into, I know. But I just don't know where exactly just yet.

I was just emailing a friend that writing on my Treo now feels more like journaling rather than just writing. Despite a keyboard that can work on an off mid-typing, I feel that I can be a great deal more personal on here. Maybe its because this is a personal digital assistant, and I don't mind personal being on here. Who knows.

All that I know right now is that the trees are blooming and I am waiting for a few rains to come so that these things can bloom and my allergies can be over. That is something that would be personally great, as well as just good for those around me ;-)
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<b>Sitting on A Weekend for Now</b>
I am home finally after speing a few hours at the DMV getting my MD license finally. I really should have done thta times earlier, but I didn't and so I spent the time this moring. I still have to do my veichle registration, plus I have inspection so I have a suite of things to do before the end of the month.

My computer is still on the fritz and so I am only getting 5 minute bursts with it when it is on. I figured this afternoon to take some of the websites that I most work on as well as some other important info and place those on my SD card so that if needed, my Treo would have access to them. Kinda kool to be able to do this.

This afternoon as me in Annapolis doing the first MMM meetup. Truth be told, I am kind of scared. I have no idea who might come out and if I will even be ready. One of the team members cannot be therre and so it will be me, accompanyed by my ladi. It will be a learning experience. And hopefully, the next one would be better and less a jump for me.

I am out for now. Peace and blessings.
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<b>Here, Back, Here Again, Gone Again</b>
I am back to just having a Treo. That was really a short lived time with using my computer again. it worked for some last night but tonight it went out on me again. I am starting to think that it might be the harddrive or motherboard as I did not hear anything that would indicate any other thing going wrong.

I am happy though that I was able to get through most of my email before it went out on me. Ironically, it wet dead when I was making the infoeet for this Saturday's reader meetup for Mobile Ministry Magazine. I have gone to making it based on the website page that I have saved on my Treo's memory card. The new web editing software that I am using has done quite well so far. I know that I need to adjust my coding some though.

In other news, please keep Kyera in prayer. She has not been feeling good the past many days and therefore is having to take off of work to rest. She deserves a rest though. My ladi works a lot with school and work. Love ya sweetie.

Other than that, I am here again. Its kinda kool just being on the Treo though. Ima try doing some more with email and then get to bed. I wonder how well I will be able to adjust to using the Treo most of the time. I know that for articles that this will be fun, but I wonder some about the other parts of what all I do online. TIs shall really be interesting.
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Was on my laptop last night surfing the web and it went dead on me. I thought about it for a bit, and realized that it won't be too bad a thing for a while. Using my Treo would get me out of the house a bit, but I will need to adjust to a smaller screen. The one thing that I will have to adjust to is banking online diffrently. The browser on my Treo doesn't work with my bank's website, and so that is an issue. Maybe I will just move to another bank so that I can use the online banking feature of the Splash Money product that I have. That would further get me away from my a laptop for sure.

The one thing that I can say that will happen is that computing will become a lot more purposeful. I can only work on my Treo for so long before it really is just tiring. Maybe that has to do with the screen. Maybe not. I just know that for all that I do with a PDA, it has to have focus, and from there, life follows.

In other news, even after four days of driving and learning new things, I am not too tired. Already it feels like a productive week. Though there is much more to do. MMM has a function in Annapolis this weekend, and so my Treo will have to play point man in getting things done there. I guess now I can work on stuff, since I have that compromise of a smaller screen to play with.

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Ok, so the end that rant from last week, I went to the car, prayed and talked to a new good friend, and then went back with God's mindset about work. I needed that kinda talk. Micah 6:8 was the Script that really broke thru things for me then.

Since that point, the weekend has been long and rough. Kyera and I went thru and event called Discovery Weekend that our new church puts on. Its like a get to know the whole chruch without the membership classes kinda deal. A lot of information, but some good time and good couples that have been married a long time we met. BACC should be a good spot to stop and settle. Tis a good thing.

I have training in a few minutes to get to. Good thing is that the office is 5 minutes from my apt. So I am good with being able to sleep in late, as well as just take my time in getting there. If rain and snow werent on the plate for today, I'd bike there. Now see, that is my idea of good for working. Go biking to work, sit at a desk, bike home, and ahhh. Nice and chilling right?

Well, this is the start of my week. Holy is the Lord, God Almighty, the earth is filled with His glory (tis the song in my head now and even when I went to sleep, neat and a great way to wake up).Read More

Blow off Some Steam
I had to leave work a few minutes ago. I am sitting in my car now and quite pissed off. Apparently I am quite negative as described by someone here ast work.

I have many Sciptures to confess out now. for if I am not in right standing, then thia I would expect (I guess). Isaiah 54:17 and 25:3 come to mind.

Please pray for me, I don't like slander any mote than the next person.
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Ok, I know its a lot on the late side for me to be awake and posting this, but I just had to share now two books that I have in print that I have just found available for eReader. The books are: the Handbook of Denominations in the US and Halley's Bible Handbook.

First, let me explain why I am so happy that I have these two books electronically. When I was in college (class of 02), I was heavily involved with campus ministry and with a few ministries in particular who taught very heavily the Word as it related to the times it was spoken and the times we live in. Because also of the many different faiths that one would find on campus, it was also very handy to be "in the know" when it came to specific matters of what you believe. Being that I was saved while in college, and did not have a heavy denominational background, I made it a point to understand the denominations as they have been shaped in the US, and to a larger extent to understand the role of the Bible and Christians in the course of human history. These two books were (and are) very instrumental in helping me to to see faith more thru God's eyes for us, than our views of what He wants for us.

To that end I would carry these two books, along with a Strong's (yes the big and thick one), as well as two or three bibles with me to every bible study that I went to. I had the mentality then that I should not be left in an area of misunderstanding, and if someone does not understand something that I say, they would be able to check what I checked in making sure that we had a shared understanding. Those were some very studious times.

Since adapting a PDA however, I have wanted to consolidate those books into my PDA. I already have the complete Strong's, care of Beiks, as well as several bibles and commentaries, care of Bible+. But the Handbook of Denominations and Halley's were items that I had not seen electronically until tonite.

So now, these two are on my Treo, and I am one happy camper. If these are up your alley, purchase and download these for eReader (and Halley's also comes in Adobe Reader and Microsoft Reader versions too) and make sure that you have an understanding of the context of our times too.Read More

Care of BibleGateway's Commentary of Galatians 6

Many excuse themselves from the work of religion, though they may make a show, and profess it. They may impose upon others, yet they deceive themselves if they think to impose upon God, who knows their hearts as well as actions; and as he cannot be deceived, so he will not be mocked. Our present time is seed time; in the other world we shall reap as we sow now. As there are two sorts of sowing, one to the flesh, and the other to the Spirit, so will the reckoning be hereafter. Those who live a carnal, sensual life, must expect no other fruit from such a course than misery and ruin. But those who, under the guidance and influences of the Holy Spirit, live a life of faith in Christ, and abound in Christian graces, shall of the Spirit reap life everlasting. We are all very apt to tire in duty, particularly in doing good. This we should carefully watch and guard against. Only to perseverance in well-doing is the reward promised. Here is an exhortation to all to do good in their places. We should take care to do good in our life-time, and make this the business of our lives. Especially when fresh occasions offer, and as far as our power reaches. (Ga 6:12-15)Read More