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Something that I've personally tried to do, with varying degrees of success, is to get people (online and off) to see what is possible with their mobile device. However, because of various factors, a carrier [-imposed] limitation is always a item that I cannot discuss around with most. Most items have to be addressed towards "this device on this carrier works best..." One cannot just say here (US) get 'x' device and go about your business. That's just not the way the market has played itself out here. Marketing and performance have basically made it so that QoS takes a backdoor to network specific features.

If carriers only had the quality of service, if you will, just the pipe, to worry about, then device discussion would remain with the manufacturers (as it does in Euro/Asia-speak of mobiles) and we'd be talking more about the latest Nokia devices released today and how we would use them cheaply rather than "I have to wait until a network region specific version is developed in part with a carrier that is here before I can consider said device". Instead, because of the limitation of what device is supported by 'x' carrier and the resulting levels of quality of service with those devices on those networks, the argument that one can do better is much easier to say when the group is knowledgable as BHers are, and much harder to those not as well informed.

In my current reading of church history by Eusuibus, I had one of those moments today where I saw so many major issues that the Body deals with today just as they appeared when they started out. The issues, the schisms, everything. And to me, for people to literally be called out on the carpet in the pages in front of me was just wow. I felt like I too was there, being called out, asked if I am one of those Chrisitans.

To read a story that was generally true, no overly wonderous heros, and people who fell. It was just eyeopening for me. I can say that today's reading has changed the way I feel about the Body. I can see myself going back to how I was at Ville, reading the Word and the voices of those that studied it so intently; monitoring my time with people and heretical arguments; and things of that sort. That kind of life was very lonely for me, but I remember the joy also that I had in just knowing that my life was being proven everyday.

I am not sure if I can be a Polycarp or a James the Righteous, but dang it if they gave me a bar to reach for in observing our Lord in every way, and then standing for Him wen it counts the most.

Right now, its after church and all have gone their seperate ways. In some ways I think that the whole church thing is overrated if we only just fellowship in the organized setting. Granted, I cannot knock the lives of some, there are VERY few singles in the church and all live quite far from one another. However, here, there just doesn't seem to be much that people want to do together, while still knowing when to take alone time.

Maybe its just me. I am a peoply person and all.

I've been asked this question a few time and thought that it was quite interesting: "if God were to ask you if you deserve to go to His heaven or not, what would you say?"

Great question, but there is a canned reply to it that I can see that many just might miss if they really don't think about it. We really don't deserve to go to heaven. There is nothing that we can or could do that would attone for the sin that is our nature. By our very living, we are showing that heaven is a reward too great. And yet, instead of the answer, "yes, I deserve so because I believe in Jesus Christ," sounds like the right thing to say. Its not. Our hope is Jesus CHrist. Our lives in Him exisit in the sincere hope that thru living thru Jesus, as Jesus, in debt to Jesus, that we would attain the manifestation of that hope.

When I sat on that question and really came to that honest answer, I started to find saddness in the Body, in the Christian faith; but found peace in Jesus. A peace that says life will rattle me, but my hope is Him. I've not heard others speak on this wise and really would have to ask them their thoughts, but considering the question of whether I deserve heaven or not, I choose to think not but hope that my life in hope of Christ would get me there.

Gave away my Truth Open Book CD to the pastor's son today. I really like that CD, but liked music more when I took it for myself for a whle and then gave it away. Truth speaks a lot to teens and young adults in that one, it would be a good listen for a while for him.

Cheese bread, Yumm. Go Panera!

If you are visiting because you can here via the Carnival of the Mobilists, welcome. I might not say everything that you'd like, but I do hope that the thoughts that do make it here might bless or challenge you.

Until the next write, adios.

The other part of this thought is realizing that the things missing (in our opinion) in this life are things that God "can" (not necessarly will) have for us as a part of that future reward.

I found today at the affirmation of a collegue that I didn't so much want the affirmation as I wanted God to just store it up as an account towards His workings in my life. I'd rather that my coworkers leave work and glorify God because of my work versus me.

I even had one person today tell me that I shuold expect a raise when my probation period is done. But I don't want the raise, I want to see His face in all of this. That would be my reward. That God wuold be glorified and He would shine.

Of course, I say all of this knowing that I haven't done my best. I've had a lack of focus for hours each day and have really had trouble being consistent in my performance. Good things notwithstanding, I'd rather any reward, God's or man's, to come affter I have shored up those areas and really have done something that creates positive and God-gloryfying change.

Since 'you' are reading. I got your email and apology accepted, all is forgiven.

Tonite has been a great night of just digging into the Word with Trev, and then some unhindered worship. Granted, I will be needing sleep in in a few minutes before now, but man its been great to get that time in where I could honor and rest in Him.

Here's a question that I posted on MMM a bit ago:
"What if mobile ministry meant engaging and developing communities that navigate thru various subcultures to display 'Christ in' our lives?

There is some expounding that I can do on that, and I'll do so some here and some on MMM. But its something that in joining this new church is something that I have had to ask myself -- as well as a slew of other things.

Getting my apt ready for the Aug housewarming and fellowship. I cannot wait for that time really. And at the same time, the fact that I wat to do something at my place once a month is a bigger step for me. This will challenge the 'hi' in me to do more than just be in a place, but engage people and 'live' with them.

Fun. Gotta love Darwin Hobbs. The bro just knows how to lead you, walk with you, into a place of worship where its just you and God. Cya, I gotta get that honoring time in...

I have attached a photo to this email that I think is one of the ones that I just took (if not just peep my photo gallery for the latest 2 pics). But it in a sense kinda is where I am. I didn't come here with much, and yet I find peace in that. I rolled here on the Word of God, and again I find peace in that.

I have no furinature, my apartment was not ready for me and I am eating Taco Bell -- and I am at peace with that.

Before I sat to write this -- currently eating -- I remarked to myself how this is probably how Abram felt when God said to get up from the place he knew and go to the place he ddn't know. I don't have a small city of people to have come with me, but I can see how unsettling it was. To be in a new place, a new pace of life, a newer outlook on things; its something that makes you breathe in awe of God.

And so I settle down for the night. Knowing that my trip to work will be by foot or bike for the first time in years, knowing that the steps that I am taking there and everywhere else here in Charlotte are real and no longer a dream. For me, God's made it very evident that I am really here.

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