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Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Poem: Living Scratchpad

Such is this truth of a man that walks behind you
The aspects of your heart that you display are so You
So true that I can do nothing apart from You
So then what was that thing of me trying to shine through
I was clear and present and forward and through
And yet the thing was not me but they wanted You
Even the pastorate came though so clear with words to
Display that there is only favor when God shines through.

How then is it that I can profess your name
They aren’t ready for the failing of the Internet shame
The engagement name
The hearts toyed with bereft of your fame
I am not strong enough to hold up your name
You name, your claim that I am designed to maintain
That it will always be you and not me displayed in pain.

They never even saw the eraser take place
The marks, the blemishes you continue to displace
You have made sure to misplace any memory of my bad takes
So that a Savior so sweet would be my life’s embrace
And yet still, I fall, less than filled in leaving this place
Because in spite of your goodness I’ve left this race
An older face that should be better hewn
Or a musical place that I should resume
I am yet over the moon wanting to reflect thine face
But stand here as just a living scratchpad with your blood drawing in my place.

Originally written 4/4/08

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Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Poem: Backwards Goes This Dream

Went to sleep the other night
Thought I saw you right next to me
Swore up and down that you were right there
With your head on my shoulder
Lying with me awaiting the sunlight.

Turned my head to take in the sight
Knew at that second it was something that couldn’t be
Swore up and down that I felt you near
Felling your heartbeat in step with my own
Breathing deeply to engage the night.

Passing by another dream held tight
Figured that if I wrote this before you came you’d believe me
Swore up and down that I knew your name
Holding your hand in spite of feeling nothing
Waiting to see the faith of your birth come to light.

Originally created as a guest post for Space and Time

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Monday, April 28, 2008

What the Duck?

Given my lack of posting here since the MMM Mobile Experiment started, this would seem to be a very appropriate comic...

What the Duck Comic, via Chris Marshall's blog

Saw this comic when I was looking at his blog speaking about his getting of an Nokia N95 8GB to replace his iPhone. Interesting choice on the switch, but the comic was better in that I seem to be moving into that 3rd frame pretty quickly LOL.

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Carnival of the Mobilists 121

The 121st Carnival of the Mobilists is now up at 3-Lib. Solid entries this week from the mobile/mobile web sphere.

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Friday, April 25, 2008

Sony mylo COM-2 Review at Brighthand

Image: Sony mylo COM-2

Outside of the Flickr image error a while back, rocking with the Sony mylo COM-2 was neat. I learned a bit more about mobile computing and specifically how I use it. And can say that there is a place for this type of device, once everyone figures out that user interface/user experience end of things. Nevertheless, the mylo COM-2 gets a vote of confidence in my book. See the review at Brighthand I wrote and check it for yourself.

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Wednesday, April 23, 2008

Gone Mobile (For A While)

Image: MMM Logo

Just a note that I might be taking a leave from blogging here for a bit. I'm an going to be running a week-long experiment with Nokia's Mobile Web Server on my N75 where I will be running Mobile Ministry Magazine completely from my mobile device - literally the phone will play the role of a web server...

That basically means that if you can get there, then you can read what will be going on. Depending on things, I might open it up to folks that visit here and just consolidate things for a bit. Who knows. I'll be on Jaiku from time to time, so between there and everything else noted on the Connect page, you can get some updates if you want to know what's going on with me.

Read the post at Mobile Ministry Magazine for log-in credentials to the MMM Mobile Experiment.

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Monday, April 21, 2008

Where in the World Puzzle at Break the Vault

Ok, I am horrible for not writing on this earlier,. But a friend of mine who got me into the web writing game has a site called Break the Vault and a ton of cool games with various cash prizes. The latest one is a geography-based puzzle with a $250 cash prize to the first person who can solve the game. Ok, stop reading and get over there and win something.

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Discovering A Niche

Palm CentroImage via Wikipedia

Walking around life with ides of how to do things better for yourself or others puts most people in a quandry that's left unexplored. We see and wonder, yet very few take that steps towards actually realizing that potential that lies within. Then, there are those, we call them innovators after some point and time, who throw caution to the wind and become some kind of idea towards that thing we all have wanted to explore. I'm on this road, and its kinda interesting because I don't know where its leading.

In speaking with a friend yesterday, she remarked how some years ago she scoffed at the fact that I was saying how she'd one day be using a PDA. She looked at me as one of those people to say "that's for you, but not something that I'd ever get into."

This past week she purchased a Palm Centro on AT&T. One of many people to have told me over the past months that a place that they've not seem themselves they are now in.

Of course, in all of this, I am constantly pushing myself past the things that I normally think about. I waver between using a Nokia N800 Internet Tablet and pushing for the N95 because of its TV-Out functionality. Instead of wanting to make "church" the center of my Christian life, I drive all over Charlotte (and wherever else my dwindling budget can take me) to interact with people within the Christian Body that have something that I should be living with and hearing.

I live in this niche of those who are constantly pushing forward. That group of people who realize that there is more to life than where I am, and push past it (because sitting still is a worse moment than has ever been recorded). I thrive on that learning of what it is that makes me tick, and then pull myself around to see that reality is worse than what it should be.

I'm like the person who is constantly trying to bend reality into a shape where I see things and can finally settle down. But for people like me, we don't settle. We continue to push further and further still. Only realizing before the end that it was our niche all along to push the boundaries of something, so that there's room under the umbrella for the next great person to lead people to something that was always clearly seen.

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Sunday, April 20, 2008

Poem: Internal Observations

Trying to get past the point where I wallow in my sorrow
Happens to be that same point where I notice I am hollow
Seeking some measure of peace while watching the things others follow
It seems that my shame is only dismissed in a forgotten tomorrow
Therefore I burrow into the depths of my strain
Making sure to note every semblance of pain
Stumbling into speed bumps of pain
Until I find my life measured in His death's gain
I strain to understand the arrows that impede
The reasons I am rebuffed it seems from happiness indeed
The problems that mount seem insurmountable to heed
And yet I stand watching until my life blooms its leaves.

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Saturday, April 19, 2008

Poem: Limerick Interplay

Ask not the night where I come to write by your light
I only wish to take flight in the comfort of your arms tight
And move slowly into the place where dreams embrace
And taste each moment that a memory's face could only chase
Until our hands meet in a never night by the hands' bright.

~ originally posted at Brighthand

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Thursday, April 17, 2008

Desperation? No, Trust

I went to a really good business meeting this morning. I met a number of people who are (for lack of better terms) doing some really good things in Charlotte and beyond. This was a meeting that I was recommended to go to by a few folks from my church, and while I am glad to go, it was just another one of those moments where I looked around and knew that I was in the mist of greatness, but felt so small to the task of following thru towards meeting God's heart for me. If you will, my integrity has been pulled in two directions, Desperation and Trust; and my faith has been getting beat on.

Many people know Desperation. Its that side where you have nothing but three walls around you and whatever is in your hands is your only way you. You can only see out, because success only looks like getting out from the hole that you are in. Since some issues at the beginning of the year, I've been thrown back into that corner and have had little response to the beating that I've taken. Not knowing what to do and being to tired to do anything have made me in this spot where I have nothing left but what's in my hands to figure out this life with. It's scary.

Then there's that side that also has been taking a beating on my heart in the same period, Trust. Trust is that measure of faith we can ascribe to God, a person, or a moment where its literally a dream that we year to realize and place some type of positive expectation towards. I learned last year that I have to Trust God, and yet I find myself in that corner again where I don't know how. My only guide has been this stubborn faith that somehow, God has equipped me for this journey, and I am doing what I am built to do. In that meeting, I met some folks who truly Trust God with their businesses and lives. My faith has been knocked so much it felt like I was in strange company.

That's kinda why I am writing this now. Inner-Linked is the new endeavor that I am placing my energies towards, and yet I don't know how it is supposed to turn out. I know what I have the ability to do, and where I'd love to see people be. But at this moment, I am in a fickle because I also have to address the lack of what's in my hands and pocket.

As I left the meeting I sensed in me a chance to start worrying more. I don't know how a few thing will pan out before the end of the month. I drove and thought about it. I can choose Desperation or Trust; but those are both my call to make. I am choosing Trust because that's the only place where I have some company in faith. That's not to say I am not in that corner though.

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Tuesday, April 15, 2008

Get Out And Play

I can be like my latest editorial at Brighthand and just be connected with mobile software on my Nokia N75, or I can Get Out and Play and really take things to new levels. Nokia's new N-Gage campaign site pays homage to the classic game Snake and pretty much makes me wanna get out and have some fun :)

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Reflecting on An Increasingly Mobile Life

I cannot speak for pretty much anyone that I know in my immediate vicinity, but I tend to be very much the mobile nomad spoken of in an article at The Economist. Its not that I am a jet-setter and travel the world (yet), but I am a person who thrives on interacting with people. Mobile and web based technologies enable this to happen for me more and more, and frankly, I am enjoying where it is taking me.

But it is not just the fact that I can go around and engage with people that makes the mobile life interesting. I am also having to adjust my sleep/eating patterns a bit more (almost going back to how I was in college, albeit healthier). And then I have that really big aspect of making sure that I shut down and leave tech alone at times to just live. Its a different kind of challenge, and something that I believe that many other people are experiencing/will experience as mobile technology becomes a viable alternative towards the desk-set nature of many jobs.

Another aspect of being mobile that I enjoy is that of creativity. I've had a lot of opportunity to be creative either in coming up with solutions towards something I am working on, or creating a new means to be creative outside of technology. Its like being mobile allows for my creative juices to flow a bit more in the arts, and this is allowing me to reclaim parts of me that have been lost for the better part of the last decade.

Its not all fun though. I am finding that being mobile has a certain set of personal disciplines that are just not present in many other aspects of living. Things such as making sure that I am eating right, bills are being paid on time, and documenting various meetings, are those things that being mobile means that I have to pay a good bit more attention to. If you will, I am not just a worker, but the boss, the HR department, and the secretary. There is a challenge to boundaries that has to be dealt with everyday and convincingly. While I'm hoping for some software to help in some of those areas, much of this is behavior and so I'll live and adjust.

But I think that's why I enjoy this part of life. Its very challenging, and in the kind of way that will make or break who I am for a while longer. I am not just interacting with people offline, I am interfacing and connecting them. With those online there is a lot of knowledge-sharing that is happening; a sharing of community, experiences, and just the fun things of life. Being mobile has opened me to more than that being a possibility, but a livable reality.

When you think about it, its not much different than other times in human history when paradigm shifts happened. It just happens that in this one, I am a part of things and utterly enjoying it.

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Monday, April 14, 2008

Only a Bit for Now

I'm still wading through RSS feeds and emails, so please don't hold it against me that the pics from my birthday trip to the beach aren't up. There is one I will share though.

Image: 2008 Birthday pics, Shells, via my Share on Ovi

Kinda neat to be like Demolition Man and do the shells things ain't it, LOL.

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Thursday, April 10, 2008

Slow But Coming Along

I write this as I sit at a cafe that I normally come to. This is a place where money flows a bit freer than some other places I go to, but I come here to see how people use mobile technology in various forms.

There are more people here with smartphones that those without. I have seen a Centro, a few Blackberries, a few BlackJacks, and an HTC Tilt. There are a few Apple notebooks and a Dell. More people are either in conversation, and the smartphones sit on a table, or by themselves with some type of productivity going on.

Its a nice day today. After work hours, and so I am seeing people who are mor or less just winding down on their days as they are here. The interesting thing is in their use of this tech. It fits. Outside of myself, there's no one that is as techie that I can discern. Ok, so I do have a bluetooth keyboard, Internet Tablet, and my phone is beside me. I also have the Sony Mylo COM-2 as I am checking it out still for my upcoming review.

I know that I push things; but its good to see that people are taking some ownership of how they use tech. There's only one conversation within earshot that sounds anything like work. For the most part, it seems that people are living their lives and letting tech lie.

Its a nice lesson for me; but a two-sided one. I see where mobile tech could be better used, and where it really needs to just be there when needed.

Its a nice day today. AND there's a 15 week old baby behind me. I think I shall enjoy watching my tech sit as just a participant of life around me.

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Wednesday, April 09, 2008

Sony mylo COM-2 on Google Talk *really edited*

And this is what happens when before a review is posted I have to make a mad dash to a cafe to use some wi-fi to snap some pictures. It was kind neat really. Internet Tablet to send email to editor, mylo COM-2 playing on Google Talk, and my phone snapping pics and uploading them to Flickr. Totally mobile, but very hastily done on my end. Such is the fun of this mobile journalist.

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Sunday, April 06, 2008

Make Mobile Innovation Relevant to Everyone, Even the Normob

This is my latest editorial now published at Brighthand, and some of you can probably attest to being something I probably should have written a long time ago. In this one I speak about the kind of innovation that the normob - normal mobile user - really wants in their device. And the truth of the matter is, the last thing they want is new features in the device. Here's a snippet:

...Now I'm well aware that some people are willing to pay for gadgets at the top edge of the mobile world and tweak and play with them, but when those products comes down in price, or those features come into lower-ranged devices, the usability bugs should be worked out, the documentation should be solid, and customer service professionals should be well knowledgeable of these features...

Take a read of the entire article at Brighthand

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So what do you say. Wouldn't you rather have something besides a new and shiny device be talked about as new and decent in mobile devices?

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Now, Asking for A New Phone Is Fun

Last night, I spent some of the midnight oil downloading and playing some with Nokia's Mobile Web server. A really interesting piece of software, it is basically hosting a website from your phone. I started getting some ideas about how to take advantage of it, but ended up reflecting on my phone and how much its really getting pushed to the limits.

That was just the tip of the iceberg, I also downloaded Opera Mini (a mobile web browser) to my phone. I had forgotten how much I liked it as I had some trouble in downloading it directly to my phone. Installing from my PC though was a snap, and in no time was I enjoying the speed links and bookmarks that I had saved into my MyOpera account (see, connect).

Just a note, those of you who want a solid web browser really should check out Opera Mini. Its as good, and in some respects better than what you've seen the iPhone's Safari browser do. That, and if you have a mobile web plan that has a limit, it helps keep you there by making the pages a whole lot smaller than what they normaly are. Its a good download, and free.

Then I also have Jaiku's mobile application running on my phone. I really like the microbloggin from the phone. That and the presence aspect is really great. On the desktop, Jaiku is great at the RSS feeds that come into it from myself and other contacts. Basically, I stay quite connected no matter what device I am on because of Jaiku.

I also have an application called Emoze. For those of you who'd like to keep up with your email, but not always answer it immediately, Emoze is a solid application. I use Emoze to be the connection to my work at Brighthand and its great in that for that Microsoft Exchange account, I am able to keep contact, calendar, and email all connected. If it wasn't for this application, I'd probably be back to my Treo.

In addition, I have a program called i-nigma that is a QR code reader (that funky barcode on this site), a Bible reader and a few Bibles, and Google Maps. Seriously, this phone is very well used every minute that I am awake.

But that kinda brings me to the point of writing this post. Its not to say that I want another phone. I am using the mess out of this one. I don't have stability issues, but I do get it where some applications will cut off in the background because of another application needing the memory. As much as my N75 is a smartphone, it is also a light one. I am just pushing it to the max to see just how mobile a person can be.

That all being said, with how much I am using my mobile devices, the N800 and N75, I look forward to what is happening in mobile tech. You can just see in the apps that I talked about above that there is a common ream of connectivity and sharing that happens. But the center is a device and my personal social network. I think Nokia sees this, and offers devices and services that will enable this to be a part of your life soon as well.
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Saturday, April 05, 2008

Its Not the Hardware, Its the UX That's Broken

This is one of those posts that was sitting in my Google Docs list that I had not had published anywhere, I think.

This calendar year, one of my resolutions was to be mobile more often. This meant I would use my phone and Internet Tablet as my main computers and pretty much go days (weeks) without touching my desktop or a laptop. Looking at the devices out there, the 3G coverage that I sit under, and the Wi-Fi hotspots that I am constantly around, this would seem to be an ideal thing to do. Three months in, I am frustrated as all get out.

Let's start with the Internet experience. I have a 3G mobile phone in the Nokia N75. However, there is a limitation as to how much I can do with it. Between the operating system not seeing a major update in a long time and the blocking of several mobile apps (Gmail Mobile and Opera Mini to name a few) from being downloadable/usable, I am stuck with a device that has menial extra use. And it was sold under the moniker "this is what computers have become."

Or how about the vaunted Internet Tablet. Where it should excel, this device fails a lot. A mobile browser that doesn't handle AJAX well, slows to a crawl when more than 2 pages are open, is built on a flexible core but cannot take advantage of that flexibility because the core is flawed, and finally doesn't even do anything to extend the Internet to an "anywhere, anytime" paradigm.

I say all of this not to bemoan the hardware. Every mobile device sold today has the ability to do everything and more, and do it simply. The problem is the software. Between short-sighted hobby developers, lack of code and user interface standards, and a general lack of discernible direction from major companies, its no wonder the iPhone was a breath of fresh air.

There are two types of software: the software that is developed to be used, and that which is developed just to show off some type of capability. In both cases, some type of vision is yearned for and the developer, marketing, and user meet at a point. Software that is developed to be used is normally boring and feels constrained by developers. Marketers like it though because it brings in the money. And end users like it because it makes some aspect of their lives easier.

However, if one were to take a look at the software landscape of many of the more open platforms out there. Most of it falls in to the latter category. Programs are developed that meet some nirvana for the developer, but have little resource for the marketer or end user. Reason being is that people don't just care for functionality, they care for elegance. And developers aren't designed to know elegance (usually).

As a Palm OS user for a long time, I grew used to just searching for a program and finding several variations of it. Sometimes I'd find a gem like TMP. Often though, I'd find a rock. Developers were rightly concerned with getting something out there and making a few cents; but they ignored the greater gain of developing applications that solve a problem elegantly. The user experience was neglected until three or four versions down the line, but by then the market for their program was so small that it was no reason to continue development.

I'm writing this using the Notes application on the Internet Tablet. I should be in the browser using Google Docs. The browser was so rushed though that going to Google Docs on awi-fi connection is more pain than joy. So I've opted to use something that won't choke when typing, despite the fact that its missing a spell checker and ability to share with my editor easily. Its not the hardware that's the issue. Its the software, and as soon as all parties understand that, then maybe we can really have a mobile web that works.

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Friday, April 04, 2008

Shoes As a Metaphor to New Tech

As much as I use one, I really find myself coming back to this question. Not because its not useful either, but because it sits in this weird place of being totally useful, but not always just right. Its probably more because the device category is a combination of several, but I wonder, where really can it fit if it fits so many place.

For example, I have this Internet Tablet-like device called a Sony Mylo 2 that I am writing a review on. And one of the problems that I am having with writing it is that I have to write more about what it is not and what it is like. Its much like a pair of shoes that can be worn anywhere. Except it sits in your closet unworn because there is no perfect place to wear them because they work too many places.

Again, I don't say that to mean that these devices are worthless. I do enjoying using my Nokia N800 usually. The ideal of having a device that is essentially an Internet Browser is about perfect for me. Would I like the ability to expore to a large screen when stationary and at home? Yup. Could I do with a tighter user interface? Yup. But I guess that's part of the issue. The field is so new that these kinds of things are just not defined yet.

What do you know, I am using a device that doesn't even have a clear definition. HOw's that for being a bit too far ahead of things?

I am not sure that others would like to feel that way about their shoes though.
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Thursday, April 03, 2008

Poem: Scratchpad

Poured myself into another rainy day
Didn't do enough though to stay the flood
Tempered no wind, ruffled so many feathers
The only features of this life is a man unfinished.

Bowing my head into the ashes
Becoming one with the palms I so adored
Never once heeding the warning of thunder
My underbelly has been so trampled upon
Agaffe I am at the present state
Roots well planted, topsoil well trampled.

Only so much a man can take on his own
A man cannot break his heart on his own
Till his heart is wrapped in melodies of southern tones
And sweet fried rice, how great it is
To taste the pleasures of a life deeply roasted with honey
Honestly no man could ever say he didn't have a moment like this properly
Yet on stage I find freedom in that agape
Till the ink breathes its last in a theocracy.

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Tuesday, April 01, 2008

Ah-lo ;)

So far this is turning into one of those mental-working weeks. I've got a lot on the mind, but finally feel refreshed enough to deal with a few things. Looking forward to a few things though as the week continues...

Going to check out a poetry spot in Charlotte tonite. There are two that go on on Tuesday nights, but this one already feels like it has a Love Jones vibe to it. I'll be enjoying this one for sure.

Image: Fusion Friday flyer

Then there is an event called Fusion Fridays going on at World Worship Center on this Friday night. I need to make a panel for events like these on the side of the page. This one would be really solid. Even got a call today asking me to have two poems ready instead of one. The last time around I did a piece called Shades. Totally off the top of my head and the Spirit of God. But it was very well received and so I've been asked to come back and bless folks again. Looking forward to that.

Ironically enough, the last time I went someplace and I was a featured poet, I met the woman who is now my ex. Hopefully, I can be a bit less ancy this time around.

Image: N810 and N810 WiMax Edition via World of Gadgets

There was a new Nokia Internet Tablet announced today. Called the N810 Internet Tablet WiMax Edition (mouthful), it not only does WiFi, but also a new technology called WiMax. Folks in Baltimore, DC, and Chicago will get a taste of this via Sprint in a few months. WiMax is like WiFi, except its range is 2-3 miles, instead of a few hundred feet. This device could be a boon for college students as well as ministers who stay on the go and a laptop is too heavy to continue to tote along.

The Carnival of the Mobilits is up at mobilestance.com. I'm not featured in this one, but there's a ton to read. Something that tends to happen from reading the Carnival is that I get some websites to read that I normally wouldn't. This keeps reading and learning fresh for me. And considering that I'm already one of those off the beaten path, this is good.

Lastly, heard thru Jaiku today about a situation that was happening at Ville. Kinda neat to hear about things via Jaiku. Social networks are good for that kind of thing (hence my voicemail message, hehehe). But seriously, applications and services that provide some type of presence notification, in addition to a solid community of folks online and offline can be a really communication bridge in a time of emergencies. I was able to call a few folks to just check in and make sure that they were doing alright. And in the end, all was fine.

After chatting with my friend Amanda last night, I'm encouraged to get back into writing up my study of "Father, forgive them..." that I have still sitting in draft mode. Should be good once I get it done, and definitely short and to the point too.

Something of a day, and its not over yet. Keep me in prayer as I am sure more is to come.

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